Archive for November, 2009

I had an excellent weekend, I have to say. We went to Wenatchee with David’s family for the weekend. We spent all of Saturday in Leavenworth, which just so happens to be one of my favorite places EVER. It reminds me of my childhood a little bit….we used to go there all the time since I always had relatives living in Eastern Washington.

Everytime I go to Eastern Washington, I seriously want to move there. The pace is slower, there’s more of a small town feel, the scenery is GORGEOUS, and they actually have seasons over there. Sometimes I long for a simpler life….luckily Leavenworth is only a couple hours away. 🙂

I wasn’t online ALL weekend, and it was really nice. I feel like we sometimes have the need to be in constant communication, 24 hours a day. People can call me, text message me, email me, Facebook me, contact me on Twitter, leave comments on my blog….it can all be a little overwhelming sometimes. I think we forget that sometimes it’s okay to take a break….people can leave messages, it isn’t the end of the world. I feel like we sometimes neglect the people right in front of us, in favor of the online world.

And now, some pictures from this past weekend in Leavenworth, Washington.

David with his Starbucks (that was our first stop).

Me and my David in Leavenworth.

Horse-drawn carriage in Leavenworth.

It's such a cute town.

I caught David looking contemplative.

David even managed to find a pool table. 🙂

This is the best I could do....I have a crappy camera. The lights of Leavenworth at night.

It was such a fun weekend. I love the holidays! 🙂 I can’t believe December starts tomorrow! Craziness!

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I really don’t think I’ve ever been more stressed than I am right now. Just a warning, but this may be a bit of a negative post.

I feel like I’ve been all over the place. I got a job at a daycare, back in October and was terminated for no reason, through no fault of my own (it was quite ridiculous). I was moving to Boston anyway, so it didn’t really matter. I had already lined up a couple jobs in Boston, so I wasn’t worried. Well, we didn’t end up GOING to Boston. I returned to the job hunt, and didn’t have much luck. We ended up going to California for a month….where nothing worked out the way it was supposed to. I only had two interviews and didn’t get either job. (Although ironically, I still have people emailing me from jobs I applied for there.) We arrived back in town LATE Sunday night. I immediately started the job hunting up the next day (Monday). Being that it was a weird week (with most offices being closed for Thanksgiving and the day after), I didn’t expect to hear much until this week. I spoke with a guy on the phone regarding a nanny job (though he and his wife decided to go with someone suggested to them by a friend), and I had an interview today.

The problem is, I put SO much pressure on myself. I get frustrated that this whole process is so difficult. That I can no longer get the first job I apply for, like I used to be able to. I know it’s the economy, but it doesn’t make me feel any better. It’s so discouraging, and so easy just to give up….to just throw my hands up in the air and say “forget it! I’m obviously never going to get a job.” I can’t do that though….I have to keep pressing on, and keep applying for everything I can possibly find. I can tell that the the job market is a LITTLE better than it was even a couple months ago. I get more responses, and there are more jobs to be had. I will take that as a good sign.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt like more of a failure either. I HATE depending on other people. I HATE feeling useless. I HATE not having something to do all day everyday. I’m so used to taking care of myself. I moved out when I was 18, and took care of myself. I was the person who bought presents for my family when I came home to visit (from Chicago), just because I wanted to. I would be shopping, see something that I just KNEW one of my best friends would like, or a dvd my sister had been looking for and I would buy it. I’m all about buying things for people…I enjoy that way more than buying things for myself. The fact that Christmas is my favorite holiday and I can’t buy anything for my family or my boyfriend is absolutely killing me. It was so much fun buying everyone gifts last year.

Let’s talk about the fact that my boyfriend has done so much to help me out. I don’t know where I would be without him. I tried, in my own little ways, to make it up to him. I did housework, ran errands, bought him gas when I used his car, and bought him Starbucks. I volunteered to pay my way for things, but he insisted I didn’t need to do that. Now that he doesn’t have income, I want so badly to take care of him. I feel like it’s my turn. That he’s done enough. What does thinking like that do? Make me more stressed. The pressure is insane.

I need someone to believe in me….sometimes I can’t do it on my own.

Hopefully that job I interviewed for today works out. I’m praying it does.

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Give Thanks, With a Grateful Heart

If you’ve known me for any length of time, you probably know that I am prone to being cheesy, sappy, and emotional at times…..especially around the holidays. I kind of feel like I’ve lost everything….yet at the same time, I feel like I have everything I need. Me and David were in Wenatchee this weekend with his family. We were sitting in our hotel room last night….and I randomly started crying.

“Why are you crying?!” he asked incredulous.

“It’s fine, I’m happy!” was my response.

While he was working, I glanced over at him and had a sudden, overwhelming feeling of pure contentment and happiness. I am so thankful that he is in my life. Never have I been more thankful for a person, than I am for David. He makes me happy, he makes me laugh, he makes me feel safe, and he takes amazing care of me.

I love you, my monkey.

Me and David in Leavenworth

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Back Where We Started

Well, we’re back in Washington now. California was good, but it was time to come home. We may return at a later date, but for now we are back. We did the drive back all at once….we didn’t stop this time to stay in a hotel. It took about 12 hours. We drove the whole way and then got pulled over in Lake Stevens (which is where we live)! It totally makes sense though….Lake Stevens Police are notorious for pulling people over for stupid things. I got a ticket, and I was not happy. It was NOT a pleasant way to end the trip.

Since we’ve been back, I’ve basically been looking for jobs….like crazy! I literally don’t think I’ve done much else. I’ve applied for office jobs, nanny jobs, retail jobs….I’m trying to cover all my bases. I’ve had decent luck so far, considering it’s been two days. I have an interview on Monday, I had a telephone interview with a guy regarding a nanny job today, and he (as well as another childcare position) is supposed to contact me friday to set up an interview. I would say that’s success! I’m feeling pretty optimistic so far.

We went and hung out with David’s friend Brandon last night. That’s always fun. I tend to really like David’s friends (I feel really lucky that that is the case) and Brandon is one of my favorite’s. He really has David’s back, I think, and I like to see that. It was a nice break from the job searching….for both of us…..

Today I made pumpkin pies for Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow. They smelled excellent while they were baking and they look like they turned out really good. I guess we’ll see tomorrow! 🙂

Friday we are going to Wenatchee/Leavenworth for the weekend. David’s parents paid for us all to have a little mini-vacation, so that should be fun. I love Leavenworth in the wintertime. The scenery is amazing, and the little town is so cute. 🙂 I’m sure I will take plenty of pictures of my beloved Leavenworth.

Happy Thanksgiving!

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In Memory of Oreo

Today I have a sad tale….our family pet, Oreo the cat had to be put to sleep yesterday (tuesday). She was mostly (my sister) Lindsey’s cat, but we all considered her our pet too. She was fifteen years old, which is very old for a cat. She was starting to have a lot of problems….she couldn’t get around very well, she stopped using the litter box, and she just LOOKED bad. I saw her on Monday night when I dropped by, after getting back into town from California….but I didn’t say goodbye, because I didn’t know! I think my mom decided that day while she was at work, and so Lindsey didn’t know yet. It was a very emotional experience for the whole family. I’m actually really glad I wasn’t there…..I’m sure I would have cried, and I don’t do well in emotional situations sometimes. My mom said Socks (the other cat) is totally traumatized. She’s younger than Oreo was, so she’s never known a life without Oreo. I think she’s afraid people are going to start disappearing. My family left for Idaho today, so I went over there and checked on her. She seemed okay….she started purring when I petted her.

Oreo will be missed. 😦

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Survey Saturday

Just a fun little survey on this lovely Friday (althought I guess it is technically Saturday now).

Cell phone: I REALLY want the My Touch by Google. I have never had a “cool” phone, and I think it’s time that I do. I feel left out. My boyfriend has the G1 and I love it….the My Touch is just prettier. 🙂

My Hair: It’s way too long….I need to get a trim and some layers put in.

Father: I kind of feel like I don’t have a father anymore….he’s simply not in my life at all. I get jealous of people who have good fathers in their lives. Don’t take it for granted!

Favorite food: Mexican.

Favorite drink: What kind of drink are we talking? At Starbucks it’s one of four things depending on my mood and the time of year: 1.) Nonfat, no whip White Chocolate Mocha, 2.) Nonfat, no whip ICED White Mocha, 3.) Caramel Frappachino Light, or 4.) Nonfat, no whip Peppermint White Mocha.

Dream/goal: To have a family of my own someday.

What room am I in: Hotel room

Hobbies: Reading and writing

Fear: Earthquakes. I live in fear of the “big one” we are supposed to get in Seattle….though it hasn’t happened yet….

Where do I want to be in 6 years? Living in a home of my own, married, with one or two kids.

Where was I last night? A pool hall and Safeway.

Something I am not: Bitter

Muffins: I like the chocolate ones from Costco

What’s on my wish list: The Google My Touch, remember?! I also really want a Kitchen Aid Mixer (it’s been on my wish list for years now) and a new digital camera….I love taking pictures and my little camera is pretty ghetto.

Where did I grow up: I always say Lake Stevens, because that’s where we lived for the majority of my school years and that’s where I graduated from high school. Before that though, we lived in Marysville until I was in 4th grade.

Last thing I did: I was reading blogs.

What am I wearing: Jeans and a pink shirt.

TV: I watched TLC pretty much all day today (as was mentioned in my previous post), however the tv is off at the moment.

Pets: King is sleeping next to me on the bed.

Friends: It’s all about quality over quantity….I have great friends….most of which I have known for years.

My life: is never dull.

My mood: Good

My vehicle: I don’t have a vehicle of my own. However, I drive David’s ALL the time (more than him actually, when we’re in WA). It’s a white Mitsubishi convertible. I am SOOOOO thankful he lets me use it….I put gas in it of course.

What am I not wearing: Shoes….or socks.

Favorite store: Overall? Target. For clothes? H&M, Old Navy, or Ross

Favorite color: Kind of depends….probably blue

When did I last laugh: Tonight….King always provides entertainment. I put him in a grocery bag….he liked it actually. Silly cat.

Yes, David took a picture of it....

My BFF: I’m not sure that I have one….I have quite a few close friends though.

When did I cry last: While I was PMSing….not pretty folks.

The place I go over and over: Starbucks….lol. I’m starting to think I am actually addicted to it.

Person who emails me regularly: People still email? 🙂

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Say Yes to the Dress

What have I been doing today? Well, I have been watching wedding shows on TLC. I think I must be a weird girl, because I definitely do not have my wedding planned out. In fact, sometimes I think I would like to elope. The idea of dealing with family drama, just does not sound fun to me. I want to do a destination wedding. We could tell people ahead of time (family members and close friends) so they could come if they wanted to. HOWEVER, I still want to wear the pretty dress. I never went to prom, or any such occasion that would have required me to dress up, and I just would really like to feel like a princess for a day. Believe it or not, the dresses I like, look like Cinderella dresses. I don’t want a lot of lace or beading, but I do want a big skirt. I also want a strapless dress, with a corset top, preferably. Those seem to be the most flattering. Yes, I actually went online and googled “wedding dresses”. That is not something I would normally do, but after an entire afternoon/evening watching “Say Yes to the Dress”, I figured what the heck.

Of course after I left the David’s Bridal page, I had to go over to the Tiffany’s website. Oh my goodness. Gorgeous rings. EXPENSIVE rings. I like simple rings….nothing extravagent….just a solitaire…preferably princess cut (to go with the princess dress, obviously. Lol.). I don’t like yellow gold so it would have to be platinum or white gold. And I wouldn’t want anything over a carat….it just wouldn’t be me. Said ring does not have to come from Tiffany’s either….all I prefer is that it doesn’t come from Walmart. TIffany’s has an excellent website that does a really good job of showing different styles. I’m sure you can find rings just like them somewhere else for much cheaper. Hey, I’m 26 years old, I can dream–don’t judge me.

A lot of my friends are married. In fact, I would say that I am one of the few that aren’t married yet out of my circle of friends. Most of my friends even have kids now. I was a bridesmaid a couple years ago in one of my best friend’s weddings….yeah, she now has a baby. I’m happy for my friends, but I can’t help but wonder if it will EVER be my turn. It sounds weird, but I kind of don’t even think about it….I kind of just assume (subconsciously) that it’s never going to happen for me. I want the house and kids, but I’m not counting on it. It’s a little bit hard sometimes…..if I could pick one thing to be it would to be a wife and mother. I think I would ROCK at it. I’m very nurturing by nature….and I’m really good at taking care of people. I am perfectly content taking care of kids, cleaning house, doing laundry, going grocery shopping, and especially decorating and organizing. Yes folks, I will be a great wife. And I’m not saying I don’t want to have a job of my own….I do….at least until (or if) I have kids.

I certainly did not intend to write a post like this today. I’m not even saying I necessarily want to get married at this precise moment in my life. I’m content with how things are going. It’s just fun to think about sometimes. I still think I want to elope….as long as I can wear a pretty dress of course!

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